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Apakah jiwa seorang muda itu adalah
Pemberontak?
Mengejar keinginan dan menggapai impian..

Naif?
Berharap yang terbaik.. Tentulah!

Apakah mau belajar tuk mandiri itu.. Belagu?
Semua dinilai.. Semua dikritik..

Jika tak mendapat kesempatan..
Saya ulang ya.. Jika tak mendapat kesempatan.. Bagaimana belajar?
Semua hanya jadi bualan yang menguap..

Sayangnya.. Tak ada yang
mendengarkan.
Ada telinga pun.. Tapi tertutup.. Buntu oleh kotoran yang lama tertumpuk.

Sekarang hanya bisa memberontak… Di dalam hati.

Amateur Chef on Board #3

Hello.. just updating some pics of my cooking^^ it’s my achievement lol and my motivation to keep practicing
enjoooyyy!

stir fry mixed veggie

potato and MaLing corned in tomato sauce

fried blackpepper pork wonton

Thai spring rolls

grilled salmon in mushroom sauce

fatty ham, tuna, and cheese carbonara

office life, different view

it’s been a couple of months since i do office work.. u know.. when they count the time you come and leave work. hehehe.. previously my work didnt need office hour, coz mostly I meet people by appointed schedule and work as long as needed (not 9 to 5). it’s quite exhausting sometimes coz i sit in different room and i see different perspective from my chair.

office work. meaning you work together with other people. meaning team work. meaning you need to be able to cooperate and communicate well to sync your work with other workers. meaning you have to deal with different people with different personalities and education background. meaning.. holy shit!

i sit in a nice chair where my job is mostly do supervising and easy office/admin work. but apparently supervising is not just sit there and look but do nothing. i need to hear people. i need to analyze people. i need to make sure they do well with fewest possible mistake.

The more i get to know them.. the more they are open to me.. but the bad thing is.. the more i hear they gossip-complain-and ratting out other workers too. it’s difficult for me honestly.. coz the people they talk about, are nice to me.

like this one guy named Pak Budi that always smile and say hello when he meets me, but then i talk about this to other worker and they say “apaa itu pak Budi males itu orange, suka nglawan kalo orang ngomong..” whaaatt… >.<

well.. i never talk with them work-related.. i chat to them about general stuff.. i dont want to make the impression of “a new girl that hunt people’s mistake” lol but apparently that’s what im doing now. I need to find out if there’s something wrong and i need to report it for any changes and revision.  damn right…?!

It becomes my burdens too when i hear reports about the lack of disciplinary that happens inside the company.. the secretary that has anger management issue.. the accounting that has trust issue with other worker.. the nontransparent report accused to other admin..  etc etc..

So i gotta stay smart. learn to read people more and more. never trust easily too. do not just believe when a person talks about other person.. sometime the one who gossip is the bad guy. do not gossip back. listen more talk less. sigh…. i used to be surrounded with nice people without any tendency to deceit anyone. but now i gotta be more careful dealing with these people..

stereotyped

one time at my aerobic class.. i was having this conversation about snacks sold in the gym..

“i once tried to make this snack.. but i failed. i used too much flour..”

then the instructor assistant said,” you shouldnt be in the kitchen…” half joking half insulting.

i know her meaning. she thinks im like a rich princess got everybody take care of things for me.. got maids that do all house stuff etc.. then i told her..”heyy.. i cook too. i like to cook..”

she was a bit shocked. then another gym member asked me the ingredients and i answered all that. then the woman said to the instructor assistant..”apparently pretty girl can cook too…” pointing me.

some people stereotyping a person based on the social status.. but when u get to know more and find out deeper.. it’s not all true. it doesn’t matter how many resources you have.. if you don’t use or take care of them well.. it can never be your own value. it’s not what your parents have.. but it’s how you stand and excel your self with skills.

small town ppl’s shit

i have learned lately that people in small town tend to gossip more than city people. like everything you do is being commented.

so should i lay low and blend.. or can i just still be my self?

Just saying…

I can see if someone is wholeheartedly caring about you.. if they are comfy with your presence..  sincere to you.. likes you..

And i know and i can feel it too when they dont..

Hmmm…

To enhance that sense i wish i can read minds. Haha.

I cant fake n hide my feelings. Sometime i think i might need to learn that skill..

SM

Your true soul mate.. is the one who can pull out the best in you.. who always makes you smile.. knows what you want.. asks for your opinions..

The one that u think about all day and night.. the one you cant live a day without..

Your soulmate is indeed your best friend.. ) the one you can tell every story of your life without worry about being judged.. the one who always support you but also warn you to be careful.. and advice you if you go wrong..

Your soulmate is the one that get you creative.. your days are filled with ideas and surprises..

My soulmate si.. the one i love the most ♡